Things I've Learned

These past 6 months have been an incredible eye-opener to me. Most recently these past few weeks. My competition prep is revving up...I'm less than 8 weeks out from stepping on that elusive stage and it seems that my goals, dreams, priorities, and overall lifestyle are changing. Changing for the better. In my perspective anyway. My perspective is what matters when it comes to my health and well-being, and my life in general. 

So what have I learned..... 

1. I'm not good at relaxing.
 ----- I need to be busy. I will rest when I want to rest. I do not do well spending an entire day lounging or laying around. Do I like it? Of course. However, days like that are very rare.

2. I am adventurous and need to explore. 
 ----- My spirit demands to be freed and to explore her surroundings. I want to see what this world has to offer. To feel the wind in my hair and different grounds between my toes. I want to learn, I want to grow, I want to be the best me I can be. I want to challenge myself. I never want to be complacent. I never want to settle.

3. I need my independence. 
 ----- I was not raised to be dependent on others. I need support. I need companionship. I need friendship and love and touch and human interaction like every other human. What I don't need is someone to take 100% care of me. I like my independence. I like being alone. I like traveling alone. I like knowing that I can support myself.

4. I'm confident in my silence. 
 ----- I do not have to speak all the time. I do not want to, nor will I, speak poorly of others. I will love everyone equally. My silence does not mean something is wrong, it simply means I have nothing to say, and saying something would be false or unkind. Neither of which I want to be.

5. My goals have shifted. 
 ----- I used to have all these dreams and goals and thought that I would be happily married with 3 kids by the time I was 25. (Excuse me, while I vomit and laugh at myself). Neither of those have happened and I'm 30. My goals now are to become a better human, a better me. The best me I can be. To be confident, kind, happy, loving, caring, wanderlust, free-spirited and accepted.

6. Lastly, to be myself. 
 ----- I will not change for someone. I will not ask or expect someone to change for me. My relationships will be based on equal love and understanding of one another. They will not be based on ease and comfort. Relationships in which we can speak freely and act freely without fear of judgement or criticism. Where we lift each other up with respect, support, and gratitude for one another.

I am by no means perfect. I am striving to be the best me I can be. I am a work in progress. A continuous work in progress. Because progress beats perfection Any and Every Damn Day.